Conversations with myself

My skin still has this rash or chicken pox or whatever i can call it. Its really just fustrating me and i am over it. I have had it the whole holidays, have been to two diff docs who say diff things, and its just not healing. Its itching, is looking very horrible and im just afraid i will never be able to wear sleeveless, short skirts and bikinis again. This really sux. so anyways, i am still job hunting, thing i am really just starting to panic because its already January and i have nothing yet. I am really starting to freak out now, but i will keep looking.